Fat Rant
I'm blogging twice in one day! Can you believe it? I can't.
I have food issues or perhaps it's classified more as weight issues. If I started confessing them all, I might be here all day, but what it boils down to is that I struggle with self image, and unrealistic expectations for myself.
Just two years ago, I was able to puchase clothing in the girls section at walmart--size 16 (we're talking little kids 16--not ladies), and I hated the fact that I was still fat. I was down to about a 1/2 sandwich/day, which was difficult to maintain, and I couldn't.
This year I've been coming out of this mindset, but it's still a struggle that I need to work on. I found this video, and this girl rocks! (warning there are a few spots where the language is a bit rough)
posted by Darlene @ 11:28 AM
11 Comments:
boo. boo. BOO. i can't view the video...maybe it's cuz i'm on dial up. :)
but i can identify with your post. wow, can i ever! it's so funny, when i look back at my "wrestle with weight and my fight to accept ME" whenever i have lost weight, it's not ever happaned when I was focusing on it. no matter how disciplined i was -- THE SCALE STAYED THE SAME! (grrrrr.)
i am thinking back to a couple specific moments in life when i was totally free and didn't care what size i was in. and suddenly, the pounds began to peel off....
oh, to stay in that place!
Shalom my friend....
Great video! I read recently that any model over a size 4 is considered a "plus size" model...hu? I guess that would be just about 95% of America. I think America needs to rethink its view of what's beautiful.
Darlene you are beautiful
beauty is only skin deep although I do you are pretty
HOWEVER I always look at the character and personality of a person and you seem like a great lady, mum, wife and princess of God. i love your blog and i can tell a lot about a person through their writing
hugs
I saw this over at another blog not to long ago.....all I can say is some one finally said all the things I have wanted to say for years....out loud.....This is a great video!
Blessings
I pledge to never again shop at any store that does not carry 3X halter tops. And that includes Home Depot!
Thanks for sharing that video, Darlene. All anyone can do is try to eat right and get some exercise. If you don't look like Tyra Banks after that, then too bad for anyone who thinks you should.
PS--check out John Cowart's latest post!
i'm losing- slowly but surely... i've dropped 4 sizes in seven months- but its painstakingly slow and i do love my food!!
I loved that video! It almost made me want to shout my weight out loud! Well.........maybe next time.
It definately made me think about the amount of time I spend agonizing about the number on the scale! I think I spend too much time caught up in that and miss out on the other, way more important, things in life!
Yep, the weight issue is a monkey on our backs, for sure. I've run the gamut on the image issues. I'm getting a little closer to accepting where I am now.
"I've got a skinny girl inside me somewhere screaming to get out, but I can usually shut her up with a cookie."
I saw that today on a plaque at Hobby Lobby and got a good laugh.
Because in my case, it's true. I'm fat because I give in to too many moments of sweets temptation. Which is a lack of control. Which is a lack of discipline. Which is a character flaw. Which needs to be dealt with. Which has been under construction for years.
It is important, though, to live in the now as I try to deal with my dilemma.
And I do practice self-acceptance. But I never, never, NEVER expect the rest of society to see me for who I am when I'm hidden behind these extra pounds. No amount of "right" is going to change people's mind. It's time and energy poorly spent, in my opinion.
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